You cry, I cry

So I missed a blog post yesterday and I’m not going to lie it probably won’t be the last. ¬†I’ll do my best to log something daily, but sometimes the days just escape me. ¬†Some days I feel like I get NOTHING, but I guess caring for Miss Nora is surely plenty and I am doing my best at that!

Yesterday I had some errands to run and I did my best to time it in between feedings. ¬†While walking through a boutique downtown Nora started to get fussy so I proceeded to leave and load her up in the truck. ¬†Not soon after….we started to have a meltdown. ¬†I did my best not to ‘haul ass’ too much to get her home, but I just wasn’t going fast enough. ¬†So I pulled over, I just couldn’t take it anymore…not her crying per say but the fact that she was so upset was breaking my heart. ¬†The moment I picked her up out of her seat (she even had REAL tears)…silence. ¬†She just needed me; needed some consoling. ¬†Being able to instantly comfort my daughter enlightens my soul and brings me so much joy.

Later some family from afar stopped by to meet Nora. ¬†I love watching people meet her for the first time; their smiles and laughs, mimicking her facial expressions, saying what a miracle and blessing she is, how beautiful and perfect she is. ¬†I never knew I could enjoy someone else’s compliments so much! ¬†Thanks Donnie and Nancy for stopping by and instantly loving our daughter!

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How long will I love you

The day we brought our daughter home, I was excited, overjoyed, happy, and you could say a little nervous. ¬†Not even nervous that I didn’t know what I was doing, just nervous that this little human solely relied on us for everything; food, shelter, love, life, health. ¬†I obviously don’t know everything that I am doing, but I know I am doing my best for what is right for my daughter

While Nora sat in her swing a few nights after bringing her home, I sat in front of her staring, and I began to cry. ¬†Tears PURELY for joy; the overwhelming and consuming love I felt for this beautiful, perfect little girl, how much I appreciated this little family we were growing. ¬†Cory walked downstairs with worry in his eyes, ‘Are you ok?!?!’. ¬†‘Yes, I am completely ok. ¬†I am better than ok.’ ¬†There are still random moments in the day that I tear up just looking at her.

I never knew motherhood would feel like this. ¬†And I guess you can’t know the feeling until you experience it. ¬†It is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. ¬†I know I am not perfect, but this role suits me and I wouldn’t have it any other way. ¬†Calming her when she is upset, rocking her to sleep, watching her smile in her sleep; these are the things that now comfort me and make me feel whole.

When I fell in love with my husband I never thought I could love another person as much as I do him.  And while my love never faltered for him, I now have this other person who stole my heart and she will soon call me mom.

How long will I love you?
As long as stars are above you
And longer, if I can.
How long will I need you?
As long as the seasons need to
Follow their plan.

How long will I be with you?
As long as the sea is bound to
Wash upon the sand.

How long will I want you?
As long as you want me to
And longer by far.
How long will I hold you?
As long as your father told you,
As long as you can.

How long will I give to you?
As long as I live through you
However long you say.

How long will I love you?
As long as stars are above you
And longer, if I may.

We’re all traveling through time together
Every day of our lives.
All we can do is do our best
To relish this remarkable ride.

Nora’s namesake

Not knowing the sex of our unborn child had us going in with a few names in mind, and Nora wasn’t one of them. ¬†Going to the hospital, I was POSITIVE that if it was a girl, we were going to name her Elsie. ¬†I just fell in love with that name, and having an inkling that I was having a girl, made me love the name even more. ¬†We wanted a classic name, nothing too difficult to say or spell. ¬†One that “fit” with our family.

The Sunday before going to the hospital Cory and I were watching a show and a character named Nora was on it.  Cory had mentioned he liked the name, and I nonchalantly said that I liked it too, because Elsie was still my pick and number one name. We had two boy names picked out that we both liked, each of us liking a different one more than the other.  I practiced saying the names out loud, saying it with  a middle name, calling out the whole name (ya know, for when they are in trouble!).  Picking a name for  human a being is hard!

After giving birth to our baby girl we looked at her and both felt like she just didn’t look like an Elsie to us. ¬†And as much as I loved the name, I wasn’t heartbroken about it. ¬†We talked to her, and said different names to her to see what sounded right. ¬†We didn’t make an official decision until about a few hours before being¬†discharged!¬†Nora sounded classy and elegant and seemed to suit our baby girl. ¬†We tried a few middle names with it, writing them down and saying them out loud. ¬†Cory wanted his late grandmothers name, but it didn’t ‘fit’. ¬†Jane ‘fit’. ¬†It’s my mother’s middle name and Cory’s mothers name is Janet, so it is still an ode to our family.¬†¬† Nora Jane flowed, sounded beautiful and suited our graceful daughter.Nora Jane

Baby makes three

I was scheduled to be induced (at this point I was 1 week, 1 day overdue) August 4, 2014 at 7am with an oral medication. ¬†We showed up at the hospital, bags in hand; nervous, excited, scared, happy! ¬†The first few hours were slow going, contractions about 10 minutes apart. ¬†It wasn’t until around noon that the contractions started to become stronger, and I had to start breathing through the pain. ¬†I ate popsicles, sat on a ball, leaned on Cory, anything to try and help with the pain and stay calm and relaxed. ¬†By 6pm I was exhausted and only at 6 cm, and I decided to get an epidural. ¬†I had intentions of doing it naturally, and probably could have, but my energy was waning and I still had to push this little one out! ¬†Cory wanted me to get it so I could get some rest (and I am sure it was hard for him to watch me go through all this pain and not be able to do a thing about it). ¬†He was my hand to hold, my chest to lean on, my massage therapist, my rock, my love…he really is the best husband a girl could ask for and I couldn’t wait to see him holding our child.

IMG_3248After the epidural, I was able to relax a little and get some rest (and I could still move and feel my legs, which was one of my biggest fears). ¬†By 10pm it was time to push!! ¬†And push I did, for 2 hours! ¬†By then, all I wanted was to see my baby and be done, I was exhausted and running out of energy. ¬†I asked for a little help from the doctor, and she pulled out the forceps and after 5 pushes our baby had joined the world. ¬†Like I had mentioned we didn’t know the sex (we both felt it was a girl) and as the doctor held up our baby, I couldn’t see what it was because the umbilical cord was in the way. ¬†“What is it?!?!?!”

It’s a Girl!

She was as beautiful as ever with a head full of dark hair!  The instant love you feel is overwhelming and really unexplainable!  You would give your life for this tiny human that you just met and they instantly become the center of your life.

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Nora Jane Foltz had entered our lives at a healthy 7 lbs 15.4 oz, 21 inches, at 12:04 am on August 5, 2014.  We love her more than words can say.

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Cory and I knew basically from day one that I was pregnant, so it was a LONG ten months waiting for our little one. ¬†I had to go through some infertility treatment; at one point having 5 little eggs in there (eek!), so we didn’t get the go ahead that time. The treatments were not¬†too invasive and once we got the ‘go’ to try, I was pregnant on the first try.

Cory had always felt that he didn’t want to know the sex of the baby, so we didn’t find out. ¬†Some people thought we were crazy and had willpower, others thought it was awesome. ¬†Not many people do it anymore and there aren’t always good surprises in life, so we waited it out. ¬†(By the last few weeks I was going crazy and couldn’t wait to find out, I wanted to buy so many cute outfits!)

I continued to do Crossfit throughout my entire pregnancy, scaling the weights and watching my heart rate.  I ate as Paleo and healthy as I felt like doing (baby got what baby wanted!)  My pregnancy was pretty easy and fun.  I felt good and it was pretty amazing to be growing a life inside me.  Hearing the heartbeat for the first time was such a beautiful sound and when Cory got to see the ultrasound I think he was pretty astounded with this little human being in my belly.

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I loved watching my belly grow and when I felt that little nugget move the first time I couldn’t stop smiling or touching my belly. ¬†It really is an unexplainable and incredible feeling.

First came pregnancy, then came baby (at 41 weeks, two¬†days)…

First Blog post

This is my first blog post, so be kind….and patient while I grasp this concept of not only blogging but sharing our life with you.

The reason I wanted to start a blog was so that Cory, my husband, and I could share a little piece of our life with friends and family without posting our business all over Facebook and the like. ¬†I’m sure not everyone wants to see a million pictures of our beautiful daughter, Nora Jane,¬†¬†so this is for those that do. ¬†It’s also a way for me to sit down and catalog our life so I don’t forget the little things and I can look back on our life together and be grateful for every little moment.This is my introductory post, and following this I will begin to catalog our life together.

First came love, then came marriage, then came Nora, and so our story goes.